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ADVOCATE V O L . 7 6 P A R T 2 M A R C H 2 0 1 8 LAP NOTES
CALL EARLY, CALL OFTEN!
I was just months into my first year of practising law. I was with the law
firm where I had articled. Things were going well: I liked the work, I liked
the people I worked with and they liked me. So what could be wrong? I did
not know why, and it did not make any sense, but I was not feeling quite
right. I was sleeping more, I sometimes did not feel like going into work and
I was procrastinating.
I did what I thought I should do: I tried harder and I put in more time.
The results were not great. I kept getting less done, worrying more, getting
more tired and losing my confidence. I kept trying harder. By all accounts,
I should have felt good. I should have been able to get the work done. And I
should have been able to stop procrastinating. I began to feel afraid that people
would notice something was wrong. I even worried that I would be
fired, even though no one had complained. The harder I tried, the worse
things got. I was even feeling stressed on weekends and began working
most of the time. My relationships were deteriorating and I felt bad about
that. My partner was very unhappy and home life was getting uncomfortable.
I did not want to let anyone know. I did not want to seem weak or
appear as though I could not hack it.
What to do? I remembered the person from LAPBC coming to my law
school class and remembered him saying, “Getting stuck isn’t something to
be ashamed of,” “Refusing to get help and staying stuck is a problem” and
“Call early call often—don’t wait until there is a full-on problem or serious
distress.” He had reassured us that LAPBC was completely confidential. I
thought I might try that.
I called, and I am glad I did. I met with one of the counsellors who had
previously practised in a law firm. We talked about the practice of law, and
I talked about the problems I was having. He gave me some practice advice